Who am I now?!
This picture brings back so many memories for me.......it was a time in my life where I knew who I was, and what was important to me... and in the last few years I am not sure where or how but I have some how lost myself.. I use to enjoy things in life and now it seems like life is a chore .... I feel like i am so busy with the kids or Ricky or another doc apt for one of them that I have ZERO time for myself... I almost feel guilty for even wanting any alone or "me" time.....that was until I was chatting with my Bestie and she said something that really hit me.... "you have to put yourself before everyone else once in a while with in reason it DOES NOT mean your neglecting them it means your taking care of yourself so you can be a better wife and mom...." when was the last time that I really did this?!!? I use to go to the gym and tanning and I loved it but when family life got busy that was the first thing to go........... and maybe if i took some time out to help myself just maybe it would help my family to..... The past few months have been a bit crazy with Ricky getting out of the USMC and us moving.....and all of the lovely trips to the VA medical center I feel like there is no time for me to do anything I want to key word want... I need to stop wanting it and just do it! so wish me luck as i take on the challenge of putting myself first once in a while..
Good luck love ;) xoxo
ReplyDeleteI absolutely know and understand how you're feeling and where you're coming from. Sometimes I look back at myself 5 years ago and kinda wonder how I got here. This is what I wanted, but it's not exactly what I imagined .. y'know what I mean? I love my boys to death, but there are days I wonder if I was cut out to be a Mom. Really I think we all go through this though ... we second guess ourselves, we feel like we're not good enough ... and then when we desire a break or time to ourselves, we feel guilty. But like your friend said, we do need time to recharge our batteries. None of us can be SuperMom LOL. Hang in there, and know that I'm in the same boat with ya!! WE CAN DO THIS!!!
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